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I walked the golden streets and the autumn wind bade me farewell
12:28 p.m.-2009-10-25

Haha you know, with facebook, there's almost no need for diaryland? I don't know what drew me back to write a new entry over here..seeing that the last time i wrote was 5 months ago in the merry month of May.

So many things have happened in the short space of 5 months! School has started, people have drifted apart, friendships have been made, friendships have been lost, I feel as if I've changed slightly too but I don't know exactly what is different about me.

Before school started, life was rather monotonous but still, I had all the time in the world to play and have fun! Didn't have to worry about deadlines, tests and homework! Sigh uni really isn't that fun...everything squeezed into a short 4 months or so...Horrible!! Haha...and I really miss HC! I remember that when I stepped into HC I was saying that I miss Nanyang. It's a neverending cycle!

Met up with Samm, Chelsea, Wl, Nickoh the other day and I must say it's really great to be hanging out with people that I'm comfortable with being myself...I feel a little restrained in Uni don't know why...and I find myself so busy I can't even get a day of rest. I think I must really quit my job soon, even though it's my only source of income that supplements my extravagant lifestyle. HAHA! But shit that place man it's really taking up so much time, people keep on calling me back to work, it's unforgiving and people only want to protect their own asses. Perfectly understandable in the working life but don't people have hearts?

So far I think the only thing that makes me truly happy in life now is football! arion has truly been a great place to be in, a great team to play with...I only hope that I'll be able to improve over the next few months so that i'll be able to assist the team more..It sucks when you're playing you know that you're only bringing the team down! So yeah, must work hard. Haha even though over the next month it's gna be hard to commit to training cos of all the tests, but when holidays come, I'll be able to head down to training and be happier knowing that there isn't stupid school to worry about the next day.

I miss all my friends who have gone to faraway places.. :( Sigh! Sending people off isn't one of my fortes, cos i always start thinking of how i wont' be able to see them anymore (even though there's fb and skype) the feeling of seeing and feeling a person's presence is always different. It's like saying goodbye to a chapter of your life with the person in it...I'm so afraid that they might become memories, that even when they are back I'll get so used to not seeing them that I won't bother. That once they leave it'll be the end of the friendship. Haha and i'll also think of the loneliness they'll experience over in the new country, the lack of the comfort of family and friends..quite scary...but then I'll also remember the time i walked down a foreign street alone and completely immersed in my surroundings. I'll realise that for them, it's also a big step to take in life. And all these emotions combined just give rise to overall sadness....!! So when chelsea and samm leave (and many more to come I'm pretty sure) I'm going to be so sad..!

In 2007, at this point in time, I was feeling excited that I was going to walk the autumn streets of Tokyo in a month's time.

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